i am special

i was the “special music” at church last sunday night. i was signed up without being asked, but kinda just let it slide. it’s been a long time since i’ve sung a “special” at church. i don’t like to do it, really. i’d rather be the musician in the back. i’ve played piano a couple of times, but that’s it.

at first, i was just going to play a little diddy on the piano and not sing like i have done before, but for some reason decided to sing and play the acoustic guitar right before going to church. as soon as i started singing, i began to just sort of let my self go and i lost myself in the words and the worship. it was the first time i’ve really completely let go of everything around me–the performance, the people, me actually playing the instrument–and just focused on the actual worship itself. as a musician, i usually tend to keep a little focus on making sure i sound okay, but this time i just closed my eyes and it was almost like i wasn’t even playing. i remember singing and playing, but then i don’t. i can’t explain that. it was one of the greatest worship experiences i’ve ever had and it would’ve never happened if i would’ve backed out like i initially wanted to do when i found out i was signed up.



i just finished my first 3-days-in-a-row 7pm to 7am night shifts. it actually wasn’t that bad. i did the day shifts two weeks ago and it seemed to be worse. by worse, i mean i was way more worn out and my feet were hurting way more. i think this time, though, my feet were more conditioned. it’s been getting easier to be on my feet for 12 hours. i come from an 8 to 5 computer job in new orleans where i sat all day, so that’s why it’s been a little difficult to get used to being on my feet so long at this job.

all i blog about now is my job. it’s because it’s a new thing in my life now, i guess. i hope that eventually i will be blogging about moving into and setting up our new house. that would be so great.

staying up all night

I’m working nights for the next two weeks, so to adjust to a night schedule, I’ll stay up all night the night before I go to work and sleep all during the day and get up right before work. I work tomorrow night, so I’m up tonight. It’s cool, though. I’ve actually gotten a lot of work done for one of my web design clients.

Last time, I drank a triple shot latte from starbucks and was good all night, but this time all I’ve had is a 20 ounce Dr. Pepper. I’m already starting to yawn and it’s only 12:35am. I’ll probably go to bed around 8am.

14 days

The beauty of working rotating 12 hour shifts where I currently work–Toyo Tires North America–is that I only work 14 days out of the month. So for the next seven days, I only work two. Niiice.

The downside is that every two weeks, I switch to the midnight shift for two weeks–7pm to 7am–then it’s back to days. The worst part so far has been my feet and legs hurting badly by the end of the day. My job requires me to constanly be on my feet and the floor is cement, so there’s no give like carpet or normal flooring that would have some padding underneath. Plus, I have to wear steel-toe boots, so it’s like walking around with 5 pound weights on my feet all day. ugh. *begins singing a happy tune, then just stops immediately and cries a single tear*

i’m hungry.